Helping one person. we will all see how this will come out.
I found her, she is like me.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Sunday, December 26, 2010
I Am A River
I am a river, I move
Sometimes I have waves, I thrust!
Things fall into me
And sometimes I am done with things.
I move!
I am a river, I change
And am changed
Because that's what rivers do.
Sometimes I have waves, I thrust!
Things fall into me
And sometimes I am done with things.
I move!
I am a river, I change
And am changed
Because that's what rivers do.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
I'm Done With Things
I'm done with things
or else I'm not.
I'm done with things.
But I'm not sure.
I have all of this
confusion.
Forever, or else it seems so.
How much before I get to be done
with these things?
The confusion isn't even interesting!
same old same old.
Sometimes I stay awake until dawn
by accident.
And I suddenly notice that it's lightening
It's a surprise.
It's, kind, of, funny
in a small gentle way
But at the same time, stark.
Here you are, Miep
And here is the light, again
Who will be the winner, this time?
Who will be the winner?
or else I'm not.
I'm done with things.
But I'm not sure.
I have all of this
confusion.
Forever, or else it seems so.
How much before I get to be done
with these things?
The confusion isn't even interesting!
same old same old.
Sometimes I stay awake until dawn
by accident.
And I suddenly notice that it's lightening
It's a surprise.
It's, kind, of, funny
in a small gentle way
But at the same time, stark.
Here you are, Miep
And here is the light, again
Who will be the winner, this time?
Who will be the winner?
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Death Comes First; Excuses Later
I cannot say what I have read
It is too terrible, and too cold.
And too self-explanatory.
I don't want to spread these memes
I want to bury them
I want to bury them like sad corpses
that never quite got it
when they were alive.
I don't want a fight
I don't want a kill.
What I want
is a burial.
With ceremony.
We'll light candles, and we will have a dance
in honor of the death
of bad memes.
Of evil thoughts.
A ceremony in honor of all of those
who have ever fought against any of these.
Including those who are dead.
Especially including those who are dead.
Especially those who died wrongly
Those who were killed
by their own hand
by the hands of others
or just by being drowned
in fake memes.
There will be no excuses
Because we've gotten beyond that
Or if we haven't, we must
We must.
Drowned in fake memes
we're dead.
No more excuses.
All that's over.
Somebody please
text the phoenix.
It is too terrible, and too cold.
And too self-explanatory.
I don't want to spread these memes
I want to bury them
I want to bury them like sad corpses
that never quite got it
when they were alive.
I don't want a fight
I don't want a kill.
What I want
is a burial.
With ceremony.
We'll light candles, and we will have a dance
in honor of the death
of bad memes.
Of evil thoughts.
A ceremony in honor of all of those
who have ever fought against any of these.
Including those who are dead.
Especially including those who are dead.
Especially those who died wrongly
Those who were killed
by their own hand
by the hands of others
or just by being drowned
in fake memes.
There will be no excuses
Because we've gotten beyond that
Or if we haven't, we must
We must.
Drowned in fake memes
we're dead.
No more excuses.
All that's over.
Somebody please
text the phoenix.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
A Poem for the Topix Forum
What an amusing little Forum this is
with its adjectival ratings
and its total HTML fail.
Cute.
Look at all the funny little people,
with their ever-changing names
and their never-changing rocks.
I could write a program
of most of these people
That would be slightly more amusing
And I'm not even a trained programmer
though I had promise.
I really did. I understood
the whole decision loop thing.
These people don't have a lot of forks
in their trees.
Give me a week to work it out.
I'm a quick study.
Occasionally one runs across
Intelligence
It's always sort of a shock
Like really pretty slime mold
And I like slime mold
I think slime mold is cool
Some of my best friends are into slime mold
They have posted me
beautiful photographs of slime mold.
And then there is Topix
which is a lot less complicated than slime mold
although in its own simple way
Kind of geometric.
And nowhere near as pretty.
Still, occasionally
a stalk pops up from the fungi
With a head with a brain
And we trade comments
such as:
"The windmills here aren't even worth the tilting"
or
"I kind of agree."
And then, fungal me
I go and write more stuff at them
I use my writing like soft napalm
to gently burn away their shells.
They don't like that, much
those Topix creatures.
I could become dozens of them. I could become
an entire Jerry Springer Show all by myself
Right there on Topix.
The main reason
I do not do this
is because I'm already crazy enough. However
Should I decide
that I'm making progress, becoming stable
Planting the good garden, being the good citizen
Making a change that isn't about clothing
It's helpful to know
that I'll have a
fallback
position.
with its adjectival ratings
and its total HTML fail.
Cute.
Look at all the funny little people,
with their ever-changing names
and their never-changing rocks.
I could write a program
of most of these people
That would be slightly more amusing
And I'm not even a trained programmer
though I had promise.
I really did. I understood
the whole decision loop thing.
These people don't have a lot of forks
in their trees.
Give me a week to work it out.
I'm a quick study.
Occasionally one runs across
Intelligence
It's always sort of a shock
Like really pretty slime mold
And I like slime mold
I think slime mold is cool
Some of my best friends are into slime mold
They have posted me
beautiful photographs of slime mold.
And then there is Topix
which is a lot less complicated than slime mold
although in its own simple way
Kind of geometric.
And nowhere near as pretty.
Still, occasionally
a stalk pops up from the fungi
With a head with a brain
And we trade comments
such as:
"The windmills here aren't even worth the tilting"
or
"I kind of agree."
And then, fungal me
I go and write more stuff at them
I use my writing like soft napalm
to gently burn away their shells.
They don't like that, much
those Topix creatures.
I could become dozens of them. I could become
an entire Jerry Springer Show all by myself
Right there on Topix.
The main reason
I do not do this
is because I'm already crazy enough. However
Should I decide
that I'm making progress, becoming stable
Planting the good garden, being the good citizen
Making a change that isn't about clothing
It's helpful to know
that I'll have a
fallback
position.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Bad Poem
I know that
I have been bad
Though I don't want to admit it, who does?
I'm well aware that I have committed the cardinal sin
of engaging in the occasional cheap shot
Though I didn't mean to. I was not thinking. That happens.
There are no excuses
it's just what happened.
I did try to notice, and remember, and attempt to become better.
This is a stupid poem.
This is a poem about how I want to hate on you
because you were so in love with the cheap shots
and because I put up with it for so long.
This is a poem of no love
just cheap shots and martyr moves.
Very boring.
I'm trying
to actually turn this into a poem
To try to see into the dark of all of this
To try to redeem you.
But I cannot.
I just can't do it.
I know you have problems.
Bad problems.
You've always had bad problems.
Thus, I should be kind
I should be forgiving
And I would, if it wasn't for
that lacuna in the middle
of all the bad stuff
where things were going relatively well for you
And you got meaner and meaner
And then I left.
I never talked to you about this. I didn't want to give you
the satisfaction of knowing that your betrayal hurt so badly.
I still think you knew. At least in the moment.
You've likely forgotten by now. You're thinking of me as another betrayer. One you cared for.
And then she left, why?
How can I explain the years of meanness?
How can I explain being told I had to submit to your friends' crappy treatment?
What is the point of even trying?
I don't even know what's happening with you anymore, though I'll likely hear, sooner or later.
Small town.
I did hear that you're paralyzed.
You're actually, physically paralyzed.
That happened. After you drove me away with your cruelty.
Be careful what you wish for.
I have been bad
Though I don't want to admit it, who does?
I'm well aware that I have committed the cardinal sin
of engaging in the occasional cheap shot
Though I didn't mean to. I was not thinking. That happens.
There are no excuses
it's just what happened.
I did try to notice, and remember, and attempt to become better.
This is a stupid poem.
This is a poem about how I want to hate on you
because you were so in love with the cheap shots
and because I put up with it for so long.
This is a poem of no love
just cheap shots and martyr moves.
Very boring.
I'm trying
to actually turn this into a poem
To try to see into the dark of all of this
To try to redeem you.
But I cannot.
I just can't do it.
I know you have problems.
Bad problems.
You've always had bad problems.
Thus, I should be kind
I should be forgiving
And I would, if it wasn't for
that lacuna in the middle
of all the bad stuff
where things were going relatively well for you
And you got meaner and meaner
And then I left.
I never talked to you about this. I didn't want to give you
the satisfaction of knowing that your betrayal hurt so badly.
I still think you knew. At least in the moment.
You've likely forgotten by now. You're thinking of me as another betrayer. One you cared for.
And then she left, why?
How can I explain the years of meanness?
How can I explain being told I had to submit to your friends' crappy treatment?
What is the point of even trying?
I don't even know what's happening with you anymore, though I'll likely hear, sooner or later.
Small town.
I did hear that you're paralyzed.
You're actually, physically paralyzed.
That happened. After you drove me away with your cruelty.
Be careful what you wish for.
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